I though im like So over this , but then who knew
My most feared FEARS/NIGHTMAR is back , but this
Time its stronger & its rally consuming me ONE PIECE !
Maybe cause i haven felt this for quite some time & now its back
I have completely NO IDEA how too DEAL/FACE with it
I never imagine that it could actually RE-SURFACED itself .
Sometime i WISH that i could be EMOTIONLESS
I hate going through, having too face it once more
I nearly BROKE DOWN the previous time & now i think
I might jus DIE.
If being LESS HUMAN means i have too give up
The good things of being a human being
My HUMANITY
THEN SO BE IT !
Those that makes a HUMAN BEING
Im WILLING too GIVE it ALL UP
Even if that had too make me A MONSTER.
Im ready too GO PASS that.
Cause i cannot go through it ONCE MORE again i jus can't.
So my wish for this NEW YEAR ??
Well too be a human being with NO EMOTION
Jus having his empty shell of my is something that i jus wanna.
Even if it MEANS being SELFISH
Sometimes i wonder if i should be SELFISH ?
YESH i THINK i SHOULD
SELFISH SELFISH SELFISH thats what i gotta have.
